The year everything changed.

I turned 50.  I discovered my own mortality.  Time is more precious.

I’ve started a carnivore channel on Youtube.  It’s for no other reason than to keep me accountable.

I look disgusting and I bare it all.  No filters (not that I would know what to do with them.  No fancy special effects.  Not begging people to subscribe.

I’m trying to keep it light and entertaining.  It’s very humiliating to put myself out there like that.  I look gross and am very unhappy physically.

That’s kinda why I started the channel.  I’m going to update my progress weekly.  I’m more given to succeed and not bitch out if I’m on display.

It’s probably not the most healthy way to do things but I want results.  Humility for me is good.  It feeds me.

Thanks everyone for sticking around.

I bought all this recording equipment to level up as far as recording goes, but ironically it just makes it easier for me to make shitty sounding records.

I think I’m going to put Doug Hell on ice a little and go back to my broody lofi roots.  I’m thinking a different name.  Doug Hell will continue to exist but I want to do stuff more in the vein of Elliot Brood, Bright Eyes, Daniel Johnston, and Guided By Voices.  I really need to get outside my comfort zone and try my hand at actually singing instead of twisting my vocal chords to sing like I’m passing a stone.

I need to be vulnerable.  Much like taking my shirt off in videos.

Everyone, please be well.  I love you all and we can all win.

DH

Also if you’re interested in my carnivore adventure visit here.